So This morning Im feeling really sick, and I cannot wait for tomorrow because it is the weekend!!!!  

I've gotten back into my old fav. movies and I watched Thumbelina last night, the version which is amazing. It features " Let Me Be Your Wings" :) <3 Gah! I love it!
Then there is the Swan Princess and that is an adorable movie also! 

I have been in a really --dreamy- fantasylike love mood (haha) and I don't know why. 

I'm not infatuated with anyone in particular it changes from day to day, Basically if I can forget about it then I'm over it! haa.

So yeah thats my morning post.... 

 Ha, This is my second entry for tonight. I hope kye doesnt get too bored, she nags me to do this and this is as good as Robin gets :/ Take it or Leave it.
Back To the Point. So I've been sitting around doing nothing lately, so It's given me time to think a lot and I have realized that I have aquired a good amout of self control. I'm very proud of myself for that. 

Next thing. So Im getting this "Surprise" I suppose? I've never gotten a surprise before actually, It feels good that someone has come along that cares about me like that. Well... I dont mean that but I guess most people just don't think like that. I love to surprise people with heartfelt things, it makes me feel so amazing and I know they appreciate me and they know how much I appreciate them.

Sometimes I'm really really really hard to deal with so I just like to show people that I can have a heart and im not all bitch..sharp tounge...ya know?

There is a freaky chirp sound outside that is creeping me out... maybe its a raccoon or something.

Back On Topic Again-
 I have also figured out that in some cicumstances I am A very jealous person, I get this sort of cringe / sour feeling and I hate it but it happens. I try not to let people know and a lot of the time they don't. I feel bad sometimes because A lot of the time people honestly do not mean anything by what they are doing. Its people just being people. 

I think I try to read too much into things and it gets me into trouble most of the time.. I gotta stop taking something for more than it actually is.

I love Robin improvement thoughts, they are my most favorite. Ha.

Hope this was Most Enjoyable!  

P.S -- Don't You love my sarcasm?

PPS-- I just decided that I need some new Just Robin pictures, tell me what you think.

  So I'm in this club called Wranglerettes. 
I've been in it for about four years. This club is made up of about 20 or so girls who Loveee horses. We do Trail Rides and Sleepovers and horse shows and what not. Every summer we put together a drill team to perform at the California Mid State Fair, and the Creston Classic Rodeo. We do a routine which is made up of different moves, we basically move in patterns and do tricky things on horseback. It is very challenging and usually fun. 

Drill Practice is a Bitch sometimes. Basically If we arent about perfect a week before the fair; we dont perform. Last year we almost did not make it, and this year is not looking good either.

We have a Camp at San Antionio Lake each summer where we go to relax and have fun, this year I did not attend because I decided to go to S.C.I with the B.B's aka my Only opportunity.   Apparently this year there was some major drama as you can imagine from an ALL girls club. Now, Our ages range from 9-17 and sometimes it gets a little rough, but I guess this year it got real messy. This club is a dictatorship, and the leader plays favorites sometimes. It's very discouraging but ya know, I deal. I Know when to keep my big mouth shut. 

Monday night was our first practice after our small vacation. It was really tense, you could feel it the whole span of the arena, and I had nothing to do with it, so there I am playing buddy buddy with everyone because Thats just who I am anyway. The night turned out to be a real shitty night. Our Leader decided she wasnt in a good mood and everyone got yelled at. One of my closer friends Emily almost quit for good, but luckly she stayed in " for Robin ". I was sick and I felt like I was going to pass out so It was shit. 

It's gotten better but its still tense, and we had some more problems today, I hope we can pull it together with five more practices :/

I really am almost ashamed about writing this.... So... Ive been talking to my ex about every few weeks, weve been msging back and forth, and the last msg I got from him was asking for my number........ and.. I gave it. I dont really know what is going to come of this I have no idea how I feel. Yesterday before I even got the email from my ex. I was at this thing.. and M. was there, and, He was sitting with my ex best friend and I realized.. I have no chance, none at all, he spoke to me like 2 times in the three hours we were there, he was no idea how I feel and he never will, he is too blindly in love with someone else, and; I guess I came to terms with that. Although I still feel it, I try to surpress it... I feel so stupid for feeling that way about him, it makes me so frustrated, so yeah..... I think,... I might be getting over him. 

Bleh, today was a really shitty day. My hw was sucky, my classes were sucky, I was really tired and my eye was swollen. I heard something I really didnt want to hear, and that whole thing was already ruined anyways. I hate all my prom pictures because I look ugly and fat. God, I just hate it, sometimes I don't even know how I kid myself all day everyday, its so stupid.

 So I just found out today that Bri and I get to travel to Disneyland in June!!!!!! IM so Goddamn Excited!!!!!!!! :D
Today, In video, I was laying my head on kyes arm, and we were just being quiet, and I looked up and I saw michael  and he would look at me and look away, and then he layed his head down, and his arm was real close to mine, and my feet where on either side of one of his, and much more than any time before, I wished he was mine, it was such a strong feeling, I really really wanted to just hold his hand and smile at him.  It makes me sad that, it probably wont ever happen. Oh Well.. someday, My Prince will come! haha.. <3 Disney magic.

 So Ive been thinking.... If ever get the chance alone, in a time where we are being real honest... IM gonna tell. If I never get that chance then hes never gonna know. Frankly right now its apparent he isnt really... looking for something like that. I guess Im just going to chill out and just, not feel as strongly about it, thats all I can do about it, I dont like feeling like this, it sucks ass.  SO Yeah. There we go. I give a good luck to myself because this is going to be sort of hard. Seems like Ive been the one to have to let go lately, it sucks, I wish it was my idea, it wouldnt be so hard.

So here is my post about boys... When I last said I was going to have a post about boys.. I didnt think it was going to turn out like this.

Have you ever been so excited and happy about something you think nothing could ever touch you? well, thats how I felt about an hour ago.Okay, I know the only person who is reading this right now is kye, so I may as well just say what I mean to say. I was on myspace, and I was looking around and I've heard of my little "competition" but I really didnt care.. and so I look on her profile and there right as her profile picture is her and him, and so I look at the comment under the picture and it says " Look who it is!!!!!!"

Bleh.
I dont know for sure.. but, you know? you just have those feelings where you are pretty positive something is true.. I have that feeling. It makes me sad because I was just about ready to go for it, and it was about to happen.. but then again I would've just made a fool of myself etc. Its not the end of the world, I just gotta start over again.

Yeeeeaaahhhhh.. GUess its the Freshman! . I will laugh about that later.

So I decided to stop by livejournal today. I was thinking about S.C.I and makenna, haley and Bri and Dani. We have done so many weird things on that island...  And pretty much..., I don't have a bad memory with these girls.. they are so much fun!!! From Epic Day to Bacharris to the siren, to the happy shower to the seduction and the interpretive dancing... it cant get any bettter. I am so thankful to have lived those memories and to have been apart of each and every one of them!!! :D

Ps. stay tuned in for the next episode which will have the topic of - Boys-  Dun Dun DUnnnnn!

So, Today this girl I know, Kye was speaking to me on the phone and informed me of her journal on Livejournal, so I checked it out and obviously made an account. So here I am, writing in my journal...Whenever I make new journals I never write about problems or whatever because I dont think its appropriate, I believe in an introduction, so this is it! I will probly be adding more in the very near future so watch for it!
Love, Robin